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ok it has been awhile since I've been here. Some of it I can blame on my computer, got a new one now, so can't use that excuse anymore. I can blame it on family / work drama, but I just have to deal with that without letting it affect me personally. After all I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF ME! BE TRUE TO ME! I can blame it on Holiday stress and being overwhelmed, but now the Holidays are over even though the stress and being overwhelmed is still here, BUT I STILL HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF ME! The stress of taking care of my mom and my money woes will still be there, but I will take it one day and sometimes one moment at a time. I just cannot allow it to take over my health and wellbeing. I missed my last week OA meeting and I can tell I really need that group. I went today and didn't feel completely up to par but KNEW I needed to be there and I need to take care of ME! My mom fell New Years evening. She is ok just has a cut on her forehead and a black eye, BUT I was so stressed with that. It bothered me more than her, but at least she is ok. I'm just tired and sometimes just don't feel like doing anything. Today is going to be a calm day. I have some reading and journaling I want to do also maybe some knitting but that is about it. I'm just so tired.....
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